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Mar. 10th, 2009

I return with more of the same. Such is life.

I have been thinking all day about times where things seemed so much brighter.

Sep. 1st, 2008

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Today has been like one deep, pleasant breath.

Moved in!

Well, I am all settled in, physically, anyways. There are few things I actually need to do before class on Wednesday, so most of this has been free time.

My room-mate has not moved in, there is a strong possibility he dropped out. My suite mates I rarely see, we don't seem to share many interests, so I haven't really gotten to know them.

I have a friend here, and he lives on my floor but I rarely see him anymore. Eh...

Honestly, I have made no effort to socialize here. There are no other environmental science majors that I know of. everyone's interests consist of either sports or pre-med. There are many pre-med students. 0.0

So for right now I walk the campus, or stay in my room and write/sketch. I am not lonely by any means, I could easily live with this situation the rest of the year.

I talked to someone this summer who was very independent, and did not need friends to feel happy, and I would sort of like to have that independence. there is also the situation of me transferring out of here in either a semester or a year.

I think I will work on my grades, my art, and my writing. the lack of social activities will give me less distractions and more focus, I think.

Aug. 29th, 2008


This will be my last night at home for a very long time. I am a very sentimental person, yet I am surprised to find little sadness as I pack up my things.

I will miss my friends though. I'm not needy about friends, and I can be a bit of a loner, but it's nice to have that support when you need it.

I'll add more later!

Aug. 24th, 2008


I have not forgotten you, oh dear livejournal. You will be updated today when the sun wanes.

Jul. 17th, 2008

I am here!

It has been a few days, and I apologize for not posting but I have had some rather severe writers block recently.

I suppose this trip will simplify some more things for me, but I think it is going to complicate others. This trip was the one definite thing in my current future. I don't know what my living arrangement is going to be yet, and I have not met my room-mate. It seems as if everyone else has =/

I think one of the best parts of this venture has been meeting other people who genuinely share the same interests as me to the same level. I am rather average here in terms to knowledge of wildlife, which is a bit humbling but I think with make me more ambitious. I am hoping the remainder of the trip will be

I'll finish this tommorow, i'm sorry, I have rather severe writers block.

Jun. 16th, 2008


Well, the last of the parties and celebrations are over, and now I think I can truly move on.

Orientation is tomorrow. That will be... very exciting, to say the least. This is a day that has been long in the coming.

But I also need to root myself into the present. I do not know if I should be looking for a job when I will be leaving in 4 weeks for Beaver Island. I think I will make another post on that matter.

I feel the need to get out of here, not necessarily to experience "the world". More to escape it. It has been far too long since I have seen a clear night sky, slept without the noise of cars and the luxury to simply stop and breathe.

The have been other things worthy of note, but this post was just meant as an update on my status, and not as a detailed account. I will share more detailed things later, and others unfortunately I must keep to myself, as that is how I think they are best dealt with at the present.


May. 17th, 2008

The delay

I haven't been updating this as much in the last week, simply because things have gotten very busy.

I'm wrapping up school, and that takes up a lot of my time.

Nearly ALL of my family has birthdays in May....which also takes up a fair bit of time.

It is nearly over, though, and I am looking forward to more free time, as well of more of a chance to develop my writing/art skills in preparation for my graphic novel which I hope to begin this year.

May. 6th, 2008

Prelude to Summer

I came home early today, since my last hour was going to the forensics show (no disrespect meant to forensics students, I have seen the show twice today and I am very busy).

On my way driving home, I felt.... tranquil, at peace. It was a good feeling.

I love this time of the year, it always puts me in a good mood. forgotten summer memories, like a cold shower mid-day or the whistling of the air conditioner in my room are a reminder of the good times to follow.

Only a few weeks left of high school! That is very exciting, high school... hasn't been the most enjoyable experience, even though I think I did most of my growing up there.

I don't know what I'm going to do this summer, but i want to make it memorable.... hmm...

I've been looking over some of my older posts... It is very surreal to see what you wrote two years ago.

I was surprised i mentioned my webcomic in a former entry. it's really more of a graphic novel, and I've had this idea, this world that I've been planning out for a few years.

Currently, I'm working on 2 things, so that I can finally get to work on this.

1) - I need to work on my general anatomy, proportions, etc.

2) - I need to get some necessary equipment, I'm looking at a 9x12 wacom tablet, which comes with photoshop. Dandy.

I've almost fleshed out the characters, and the story has a general idea. I'm hoping to get the help of my cousin Jeff with the writing. He is a fantastic writer - you can see some of the excerpts of his novel in his LJ that he wrote 2 years ago.... when he was 14.

I should get back to schoolwork. Cheers.
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May. 4th, 2008



It has been a long time! I have come back older and wiser, and while I doubt anyone reads this anymore, I have come to the conclusion that keeping a journal can be enjoyable and can do wonders for ones own self perception, when entries are read years afterwards.

I went to my cousins wedding yesterday. For someone with a rather severe case of social anxiety... it was a bit awkward.


Though I doubt my clap n' stoop failed to charm any of the middle aged women there, I felt I successfully filled my quota of Dance, and I retreated to our table to discuss with my Grandfather the wonders of the dessert bar.

I guess it's strange.... it just hard for me to have a good time at these things. I suppose it made me realize I don't really know my cousins on my Fathers side all that well. Which is a stark comparison to my cousins on my mothers side, who are some of my closest friends.

I think it wouldn't be too far fetched to say it is the age difference, about 15 years apart.

That's the excuse I've been holding on to for a few years... but i've recently come to a different conclusion.

I am ashamed of my childhood.

Yeah, weird, huh?

anyone that was a teenager while I was a child, I have a hard time..... relating to? I don't know if that is quite the right word.

I don't know why. Do I expect that I should have behaved as an adult when I was 6? Do I think that people are judging me, and thinking I am a child because they knew me as one?

Hmm.... I'll think on this one. Goodnight! Hopefully it won't take another 2 years to update!